finding a voice


June was a really productive month. I wrote hundreds (well, it felt like it) of articles, met and interviewed a host of interesting people, found new clients and got rid of one particularly dreadful one...
But in the flurry of it all, I seem to have lost my own voice.
Perhaps it is because I have spent a fair amount of time "ghost-blogging" for a couple of my clients? I've been crafting my words into their voices, hearing their tones and inflections and passions and speaking for them.
My mind is so filled with these other characters, that I am finding it difficult to speak for myself.



We did find some time for some fun things though... a highlight was breakfast at the Royal Hotel in Riebeeck Kasteel, which claims to have the longest stoep in Africa, or something. Here it is. A great spot. We went back for dinner... waterblommetjie breedie (stew made with water lilies) and because we were the only guests (we were early) sat in the smoking room in front of the huge fireplace. As the evening wore on and we got more mellow (I was drinking Allesveloren port) the room got more and more smokey, until the waiter and manager rushed in, all concerned, and opened all the doors and windows.

I've set myself the challenge of a post a day for July, and already I'm feeling a little daunted. Let's see how it goes...

Comments

Meri said…
Welcome back! I'm sure if you keep looking, you'll find your own voice. I found mine after it had been missing for too long.
1 July 2009 at 16:55
Lynne said…
thanks Meri! Its good to be back!
1 July 2009 at 17:00
Mary Ellen said…
Hi! I've just included your blog link in my reading list. Good to hear from you! I generally have only time/energy enough for a blog or two each week. But that seems enough (along with some checking in and comments) to keep a sense of my own voice available. Good luck with your intention of daily blogging!
2 July 2009 at 00:00
spudballoo said…
I just found your blog through your comment on mine...it's lovely. If you need to find your voice, would photos help? They shape a post, give a theme (if not a structure), and might give you some space to find your voice again? Just a thought...
2 July 2009 at 00:05
Lynne said…
Hi Mary Ellen and Spudbaloo! Thanks for the comments and the good advice ... and for popping over from Julie's place! I've been visiting your blogs after I saw your names on hers. I love these connections.
2 July 2009 at 08:23
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